In fact, awesome is an adjective wholly inadequate for describing Myra. She's awesomer than awesome! Her mere presence enriches my existence to the point that even I, a writer, can't find words to express how wonderful my life is because of her.
Over twenty-eight years ago I realized I loved this awesome woman. The day we wed I would have given my life for her. And after all these years I love her even more now than I would have ever believed possible even on that most special day.
|A long, long, long time ago...|
She knows what I'm going to want to wear to work tomorrow. She knows when I need "Jeff time" after a long day at work. She offers encouragement and feeds my confidence like nobody deserves. She refuses to let me berate myself, countering each self-condemning statement I make with a litany of reasons why I'm wrong. She loves unconditionally and caters to me like I were a king.
Just this week at work, a coworker approached while I was on the cell phone speaking with Myra. I noticed this coworker grinning and eventually had to ask why. She told me I looked like a teenager talking with his brand new girl friend. Do I still feel that freshness, that excitement after all these years? You bet I do. I just didn't realize it was so obvious to everyone.
|My inspiration. My life.|
Our secret is commitment.
This is not commitment for commitment's sake. This is commitment that fuels devotion, demands dedication and drives the determination required to make each moment special. It's the resolve to set one's self second.
This commitment offers an honest apology for a voice raised in frustration or a word spoken in anger. This commitment is the reminder to open her car door, the willingness to hold her purse in public. It's forgiving him for not remembering the anniversary of your first date or for forgetting to give you a kiss before he left for work.
This commitment hurts worse for the hurt of the other than for the hurt of one's self. It revels in the other's success and comforts the other's sorrows. It protects. It serves. It endures.
This is the commitment that only the most awesome people are willing to make.
My wife is awesome. I'll tell you today that loving Myra more than I do right now is impossible yet tomorrow I'll tell you that I was wrong.
Twenty-eight years of marriage and I'm still stricken by her awesomeness.